Beneath all the bullshit of life and the unnecessary emotions that come along with it I seemed to have found the place that makes me happy.
Today when I went to work I decided that I would make the best of the day! I went in about an hour and a half earlier than usual. When I arrived I decided to hang out in the "Mouseketeria" to eat some food before starting work since I didn't get to eat much for my 8 hour day ahead of me. So as I stared down at my fries and soda, realizing that I should have chosen the chicken salad instead, some Soap Opera was buzzing in my ear. Sometimes I try to zone out and not focus on where I am or what is going on, and it gives me a chance to concentrate on either nothing at all or how I plan on making my day better, the day that I soon would be encountering in the next couple of hours.
After I ate, I clocked in and started work for my day. It wasn't until after my Tea Break that I ended up at the Princess store and this is where most of the happiness and memory creating magic happened. I had my fairy wand filled with pixie dust, ready to go!
I'll only talk about two encounters I had today that made me feel so warm and fuzzy inside...since there were so many encounters today!
So an elderly woman named Nancy came up to me to purchase a Cinderella wand for her Granddaughter, we talked about how her day had been going and about how excited her Granddaughter was going to be when she would get her present. But before Nancy left she had told me that today was her birthday, so I wished her Happy Birthday, and she just said to me that she didn't know how the day could get any better after seeing the castle and the shows and characters! I smiled at her and said to her that her day was about to get better in 5 seconds. I asked her if she ever dreamed and wished about being a Princess, and she said of course, what little girl didn't?
She made a valid point.
So then I made my way around the counter with my wand in my hand, I looked at her again and smiled, "Well Princess Nancy, I want you to close your eyes and think of a big girl Princess wish!" While waving my amazing pixie dusting wand I then said, "Now with a little bit a faith, trust and pixie dust, may all of your dreams and wishes come true." And there you have it Princess Nancy with glitter all over her, showering her in faith and trust. Nancy had the biggest smile on her face, and I told her that she now was a true Princess who gets to celebrate her birthday Princess style.
Even though Nancy was an elderly woman, it didn't mean that pixie dusting was for children only. Everyone finds their inner child, young or old and that's the thing I love most about Disney.
Now my second story goes to four mothers and their three daughters. Same rules apply to pixie dusting three little Princesses. But after I had pixie dusted the little girls, I looked at the Mom's and just sighed. I had told them that the Fairy Godmother wouldn't be happy with me if I didn't let everyone have a little piece of pixie dust to wish upon. So each of them I pixie dusted and they all smiled and thanked me. I mean no one really wants to go home with glitter in their hair, but at the moment I made memories for them to cherish.
I can't wait to come back to Disney with my family to enjoy the happiness and love, the feeling that you get and believe that anything is possible and magical.
So I'll share with you my corny hopes and dreams of what I've always imagined happening to my life if I continued to pursue my dreams.
When I close my eyes and imagine my future, it always starts off with a hazy summery morning, where the sun peaks through the trees, and you can smell the morning dew grass. It's like a picture perfect vintage sun flare kind of setting, with the checkered red and white picnic blanket on the grass having a perfect summery morning breakfast with the person I am in love with, who loves me back. Sharing the most amazing apricot pie made in Italy.
Then the scene changes to getting proposed to in the most romantic way, but not in a way where I am in control of the situation. But the one moment in my mind that gets me is the way my wedding is going to be.
Everyone says that we're young, and yes I am young, maybe that's why love is such an amazing thing at this time. I mean, why does love have to wait? Doesn't love have no boundaries? No beginning and no end, love is just there. It grows and blossoms, love never leaves or fails.
No one can tell you what to do or how to live your life, yes parents try to school us on what is wrong and what is right in hopes of having us avoid mistakes they know that can be made, or were made by them. They don't want us to go down a path that they know is the worst yet. But if you are in control of your life, then all we can do is take that advice and learn and grow for ourselves.
I want to get married, because that's what 21 year old women dream of.
My perfect Cinderella type wedding that is what every girl wants.
But what I imagine the most is the man I want to be with, and I know who I want to be with. Handsome and strong, protective but gentle, a sweetheart all around.
He plays with my hair and that puts me to sleep, and when he puts his hand on my face gently my heart races and I close my eyes and melt. Completely captivated my heart is smitten by him and I can no longer resurface to a reality without him. Why leave the content world of happiness and love, to a world that you are on your own and you'd have to fight for love? I don't have to fight for someone to love me, they can just love me on their own. That's what makes it romantic.
Even as I type this, I am crying, crying tears of happiness and sadness all in a mix.
Of love and loss, and the closing of one door and opening another, to find someone there at the end of it all with arms wide open, open for me and only me. Someone who only wants me and no one else.
I dream big dreams, but I am not afraid to pursue them, I want to be a Photographer, a Wife and a Mother, someday.
But right now my career is what I am focusing on to be a strong independent woman for myself as a basis.
Besides wanting to be a Photographer, my dream for a side job would be to be an Art teacher at an Elementary School.
I am growing up, and it's time that everyone can see that, I am not like anyone you've ever met, or try to compare me with. I am me, just plain ol' Dominique.
You either take it, or you leave it.
And yet, although I know i am growing up, I am still so childish.
All I want right now to be quite honest is to be back at my home with my Mommy, Daddy and Brother. I want to wake up in the middle of the night and lay in between my parents and have them hold me because the world is cruel and hurtful. Sometimes love is stupid because it ruins a friendship and the only way to make all the hurt go away is by the way my parents tell me that everything is going to be okay. Because in the end they are right. I am going to be okay.
xoxo,
domi
"Tonight I'll dream while I'm in bed, when silly thoughts go through my head about the bugs and alphabet and when I wake tomorrow I'll bet that you and i will walk together again. I can tell that we are gonna be friends." <3 br="" nbsp="">
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